8. Phileas – Across the States in 80 Days: Week Six – Out of the Wild

Eighth of 13 Videos about my trip, in 80 days from New York to Los Angeles by bicycle, the sixth week on the road.
The music used is from the album « To the end of the world », which was recorded by The Lone John Harps in 2014.

You can download the tracks at: https://thelonejohnharps.bandcamp.com

The text was written during the trip, and reflects the state of mind I was in at that moment.

Sixth Week: On the road
I am now right in the middle of this mythical no-man’s land that I have sought out. Right in the middle of that story that I have read and been fed for so long. I would be lying if I didn’t acknowledge my indebtedness to these ramblings. But I would be dishonest if I endorsed them completely.
Of course when I read something like “I was halfway across America, at the dividing line between the East of my youth and the West of my future”, it strikes a chord deep within.
But just like I can’t say “I am alive” without echoing someone who came before, it doesn’t mean that my being alive has to be pure imitation and indiscriminate following.
I always liked the road but not the man who was telling me about it.
He yearned for people “mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved” but in the end his madness was nothing but an excuse for someone too weak to care.
He may have redeemed himself through his writing to some extend, but his life and vision and opinions eventually appeared to me to resemble those that he was railing against.
Just like Rock n’ Roll, and all its bullshit mythology, those who are prone to “burn, burn, burn” usually end up burning everything and everyone around them to the ground.
And if they come out of it alive, often turn into the very people they so vehemently vilified.

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